Here’s a thought for you all – something that dawned on me yesterday as I commuted across the city.  We all came here to LOSE.  Today I am reframing that.  Today and every day I am going to look at what I have gained in 2/3rds of a year;

  • friendships: close ones, real ones – albeit virtual. Bonds forged from shared effort and support.
  • the blessed relief of being “me”. Just me as I am here; not someone’s carer/daughter, not everyone’s mother. Just ME.  That is a huge part of the strength you bring me.  Good, bad, up, down, insane; but all authentically, wonderfully wholly ME!!!  And I take this back into my Family relationships – I am better balanced!!!!
  • years of life.  I may be 56 in temporal measured years, BUT I look early 40’s these days.
  • roseacea?  I had it, it marred my visage/face. Burned from the inside…. Yet where is that today???  I am constantly complimented on my lovely glowing skin!!!!
  • size 20?    hahahahahahaha.  Not anywhere near that anymore!!!!!
  • apple shaped??  I was; now I have a clearly defined neat waist ( again) a real bona fide waist.
  • my knees work, and don’t seize up on me
  • from walking up a single flight of stairs catching my breath every 1 or 2 stairs, I now run up and down stairs all the time.  Yes – I said RUN!!!!!!!
  • my brain works better and my thought processes are clearer; I am no longer thinking through a fog muddling from one thing to another.  I am innovative, accomplished and insanely confident.
  • I flirt again, AND am cheeky.  I tease and laugh.
  • I am no longer afraid of being photographed ( and look like I am in pain if caught on camera. I smile. I embrace life.
  • my ankles don’t give on me.

My body is still less than perfect, but it is light years better and away from what I began this year living and stumbling around within.

Today I choose to celebrate NOT what I have lost, but the health and friendships, and the self esteem and glow I have gained.  8 months of healthy choices and changing my approach to food, life and choices?  Worth every drop of sweat…… every so called “going without”.

I can hardly wait for these last 4 months.  They can’t believe I will end up with a better body than any of my daughters?

They said I couldn’t do this, either.  Just watch me!!!!!!!!!